I hate...

i hate it when a dad thinks that he can run a daughters life by keepin her in the middle of nowhere.  Just because he made a mistake when he was young he thinks that his daughter will make the same mistake.  But if she did make a mistake, it would be hsi fault becasue he rasied her the way she is. Not being there for 13 years and now wanting to come in and be a part of my life and says that hes only doing the stuff hes doing to keep me safe so i dont get raped or hurt by a guy, but then he goes and tells me that if i got raped he wouldnt feel srry for me cause i brought it on myself and took me away form the only person who has ever kept me safe when he himself was beatin her and us. I live in fear everyday that he will snap and end up hurtin me.  He always has people watchin me. I feel like i can't even go ouside without feeling like im being watched. Its ridiculous.  Im tired of it.  Especieally after he hasnt changed at all.  He gets into fights witgirlfriends and wen they try to call 911 or some one for help, he breaks the phones in half and locks the cars so that we can't leave. One day I'm gunna leave and never come back or look back and it is gunna be his fault!!!!! He didnt let me be myself or express myself that Im gunna blame him for everything that happens to me because he never trusted me or let me be who I  wanted to be. He kept me away from civilization and away from life and now Im gunna rebel and hate him for the rest of my life!! So to all u who think that ur life is being controlled and u cant be urself think agian!! One day u can leave and never look back and be who u wanna be!!!!!!!!